everywhere you are. by lightninginabottle, literature
Literature
everywhere you are.
[It's snowing tonight.]
It's winter again, and she probably already knows it. But what she doesn't know is how I would pay too much attention to the way the thin gold chain necklace her mother made her wear dips between her protruding collarbones and the way she fiddles with the hem of her skirt because I know she hates the way her knees look. And with the winter comes everything else.
It's that time of year again when everything comes flooding back. It always happens the same way: it's the way the trees cast shadows that seem darker than they were before, and the cold and breathless sunlight that rekindle that frant
i knew we were unraveling.
i'd always noticed the kinks and imperfections in the fabric but never said anything.
never said anything about the loose ends that were being pulled apart; the patchwork that needed resewing and the buttons that needed refastening.
but neither did you.
so I took my needle and thread and tried to fix it.
i would sit quietly alone with my tools, trying cross-stitch, chain stitch, running stitch, anything, to mend this cloth.
but because i was clumsy; because i fumbled with the needles, i'd always prick my finger; the cloth now stained vermillion, and i'd have to stop and wash it off.
countless bandages covered
leave me your wake by lightninginabottle, literature
Literature
leave me your wake
i keep dreaming of her and the ocean.
and how her legs blend into the sand and begin to wash away, and how the water pools in the dent of her collarbone and trickles down her neck and flows back to the sea. how everything returns and nothing can stay.
and my eyes sting because i'm crying saltwater because the moon won't let me keep her. he keeps reaching out, ripping at her skin. pulling her in and washing her back for only a short while, white and cold, but the constellations on her back and shoulders are still bright.
she keeps reaching up,
grasping at something beyond her skeleton fingers.
'i can't remember what it's called.' her voic
i suffer from a disease with symptoms such as weak knees, scarlet cheeks, broken hearts, and waiting outside the school gate to walk home with a girl who doesnt like me the way i want her to.
shes the farthest star that i can never reach, the gut wrenching stomachache i have every night before i go to sleep, and the incessant tap tap tapping in my chest that i can't seem to quiet no matter how hard i try.
and i never notice how ill i am until i look in the bathroom mirror and see the bite marks on my lips that kept them from trembling and feel my heart wince at the sight of her face outside the school gat
id often find you in the graveyard behind your house, sitting atop of tombstones swinging your black converses back and forth and throwing your pretty head back to smile at those who werent there. id watch you, ever curious as to why you would talk to those who dont answer.
dead dont speak. they listen. who better to talk to? is what youd say to me.
i didnt understand. but on sweltering nights when i couldnt get to sleep because the only th
have you seen her? by lightninginabottle, literature
Literature
have you seen her?
Tell me have you seen this girl? This red haired, cat eyed girl with snowy skin kissed with freckles and pretty pink lips that I think about much more than I should.
Tell me have you seen this girl? This girl who sits in narrow alleyways and draws crooked hearts on the chipped walls with the eyeliner and red lipstick she likes to keep in her pocket to make her feel pretty.
Tell me have you seen this girl? This girl who sprints barefoot down the hot p
hey, hey
remember when we were little and wed scatter glass marbles across the playground concrete and play for keepsies. i was so upset the day you won my cat eyes that i wouldnt speak to you. but you were too cute to stay mad at. plus i won your oxblood.
hey, hey
remember when we accidentally broke mrs. mellans window with a baseball. you grabbed my hand and led me into the garden, shielding me from mrs. mellans yelling like they were arrows. my face matched the poppies, and i was afraid the black eyed susans could see.
hey, hey
remember when you told me you liked girls with long blonde hair an
you're such a heartbreaker you blonde haired blue eyed boy
when i see you, my chest softens
and begins to slowly drip like a forgotten popsicle
and plummets into my stomach
no
to me, you're a heart melter
everywhere you are. by lightninginabottle, literature
Literature
everywhere you are.
[It's snowing tonight.]
It's winter again, and she probably already knows it. But what she doesn't know is how I would pay too much attention to the way the thin gold chain necklace her mother made her wear dips between her protruding collarbones and the way she fiddles with the hem of her skirt because I know she hates the way her knees look. And with the winter comes everything else.
It's that time of year again when everything comes flooding back. It always happens the same way: it's the way the trees cast shadows that seem darker than they were before, and the cold and breathless sunlight that rekindle that frant
i knew we were unraveling.
i'd always noticed the kinks and imperfections in the fabric but never said anything.
never said anything about the loose ends that were being pulled apart; the patchwork that needed resewing and the buttons that needed refastening.
but neither did you.
so I took my needle and thread and tried to fix it.
i would sit quietly alone with my tools, trying cross-stitch, chain stitch, running stitch, anything, to mend this cloth.
but because i was clumsy; because i fumbled with the needles, i'd always prick my finger; the cloth now stained vermillion, and i'd have to stop and wash it off.
countless bandages covered
leave me your wake by lightninginabottle, literature
Literature
leave me your wake
i keep dreaming of her and the ocean.
and how her legs blend into the sand and begin to wash away, and how the water pools in the dent of her collarbone and trickles down her neck and flows back to the sea. how everything returns and nothing can stay.
and my eyes sting because i'm crying saltwater because the moon won't let me keep her. he keeps reaching out, ripping at her skin. pulling her in and washing her back for only a short while, white and cold, but the constellations on her back and shoulders are still bright.
she keeps reaching up,
grasping at something beyond her skeleton fingers.
'i can't remember what it's called.' her voic
Your voice was like a broken radio. Each word would buzz and crumble away into the air, only incessant static left behind. But whenever you said my name, it sounded sweet, like someone had readjusted the antenna
~
Your favorite book was Catcher in the Rye. You read it every summer before we went back to school, and would laugh aloud when the pimp struck Holden. Your humor was sick and twisted, but I was sure to be there the day you read that chapter just to see you smile and laugh
~
I remember the night you called me up to sa
Winter is tall with icy blonde hair and eyes made of coal that smolder like embers. His voice is versatile; soft one minute, abrasive the next with cold sighs that escape through ashen lips that soon turn into screaming. His hands are like knots; his fingers forever clenched with the fear of being alone frozen in the back of his mind with white knuckles showing through.
[I didnt like Winter because I couldnt hold his hand]
Spring has porcelain skin, not yet kissed by the sun except for the rosebuds in his cheeks, and flaxen brown hair pulled back in yellow ribbons. He has a fragile frame and skinny wrists
I hated the smell that coins left on my fingers
Musty, bitter, and dirty like blood
You said that blood didnt have a smell or taste
If that were true
Then why is it that every time I see you
I bite my lip and my mouth floods with silver?
Letters for Laurie. by lightninginabottle, literature
Literature
Letters for Laurie.
Dear Laurie:
I just wanted to let you know that your skin looks beautiful tonight. Scarlet and ivory always did look better on you. I wish theyd make pianos that way instead of with ebony, but I want the red and blue lights pulsing like heartbeats in the midnight sky to go away. I want the stars back.
Dear Laurie:
I found scraps of paper under your dresser the other day in a tin box with the word confessions written across the lid. The words I used to rip the wings off of gnats and butterflies was scribbled onto on